Joy is more than feeling cheerful.  It is a light that shines inside my soul from the Holy Spirit.  Love is the result of communion with God.  Peace is not the absence of troubles; it is a feeling inside my soul from the presence of God. It is from this basic belief system that I began the journey of child loss.  I do know that without my faith I would not have been able to endure great loss. When we received the news, it felt as if  the wind had been knocked out of me.  I felt like a turtle on its back unable to flip over.  The only thing I knew to do was pray.  God, show me what to do.  What do you want me to do?  God, place someone in my path to show me what to do. Have I been happy about the loss?  No.  I would love to step into a time machine and have a do-over.  Do I have a choice?  No.  It does not benefit my emotional well being or my family to attempt to move forward with my...