It’s been a while since my last post. I am really off my regular schedule this summer.
My daughter has been on summer break from college. I’ve enjoyed having time with her. She has a couple of weeks left before she goes back.
My husband and I enjoyed a week at the beach with both of our married sons and their wives and our daughter over the Fourth of July holiday. We were lucky enough to have a photographer take family pictures at the beach one evening. I’ll tell you more about that trip later. We loved the company but it was hot, hot, hot.
We decided to upgrade our queen size mattress to a king size mattress. I don’t know about you but buying a mattress for our bedroom is worse than buying a car. It has to make two people happy. The first mattress was an online purchase. Fortunately, it had a 120 night guarantee. The first night was like sleeping on a bed of nails. Four days later, we went mattress shopping. We finally got the new king size mattress delivered last Saturday but they brought a queen size headboard. The king size head board is supposed to be delivered today. Fingers crossed. The old New Mattress was finally picked up two days ago. My new bed is on an adjustable frame. Just like a hospital bed. I am one step closer to the nursing home. Anyway, this bed ordeal has literally taken a month to resolve.
Also, I have chronic back issues that have really made their presence known. I have gone to an assortment of doctors to get poked and prodded almost every week trying to get to the bottom of this. I have an appointment with a neurosurgeon in a week. I think surgery will be in my future. My back hurts so bad that I am actually looking forward to that.
I have never been a Bravo television viewer but at the beginning of the summer I became addicted to Below Deck. I now have my whole family addicted to it. So we have done a lot of binge watching. I feel 20 IQ points stupider but it is addicting.
I have also spent the summer being quiet and reflective. I have done a lot of reading. Mostly I have been reading about things of a spiritual nature that have been insightful. I am eager to share in another post some of the things that have been really helpful as I continue to move forward since my son’s passing. August 1st marked ten months. It is hard to imagine in two months I will begin marking that time in years instead of months.
I made a trip to the cemetery this past week to proof and approve the design of my son’s monument. Wow. I would have never imagined what William David Magee August 12, 1987- October 1, 2016 would look like on a headstone in my wildest nightmare. It is a surreal feeling. It was supposed to be installed by now but now I am being told it will be December at least.
My son’s birthday is on August 12th. Another first: First Birthday since he passed. As of right now, I am trying to focus on celebrating August 12, 1987 as being the day he came into my life as opposed to a day of mourning. I’ll let you know if my optimism can withstand the actuality. I had another visitation dream a couple of weeks ago and I can’t wait to share that as well.
If you had told me last summer what I had in store for me this summer I wouldn’t have believed you. But here I am. I’m still putting one foot in front of the other. I am moving forward in baby steps. My cardinal has been showing up on a regular basis and providing me encouragement and hopefulness.
Peace and Love.
She writes about life, death, grief, and recovery.
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