How Do I Live?

By on Oct 21, 2016 |

This morning I awakened and out of the blue I thought of the LeAnn Rimes song “How Do I Live”. I have not thought of that song in 15 years at least. But for some reason this morning I felt compelled to look up the lyrics. I will share a few lines and if you interested you can look up the whole song. I know that the song is supposed to represent the relationship of a woman losing her romantic partner. But I read the lyrics from the point of view of a mother losing a child. Don’t actually listen to the song unless you want to do the Ugly Cry because I’m warning you it will happen. Here is a sample of the lyrics: “How do I get through one night without you if I had to live without you. What kinda life would that be? Oh I need you in my arms, need you to hold. You are my world, my heart, my soul. If you ever leave, Baby you would take away everything good in my life and tell me now....


By on Oct 19, 2016 |

Well, it’s been 17 days since we were notified of our son’s passing.  There have been so many gestures of support from my real life friends and my Facebook friends. There is no way to express how comforting this is.  People have helped us in ways that I would have never dreamed to ask someone to do. My husband and I typically don’t ask other people to do things for us because we never want to put people out. This experience has taught me that there are more ways to help someone besides bringing a covered dish.  I need to step up my game so I am grateful for these lessons. I will share a few examples of the type of help I have received.  Within 24 hours of finding out about our loss, a couple that we are friends with stopped to ask how they could help.  Normally, I would have just said, “If we think of something we will let you know.”  Instead I blurted out, ” I need food.”  My two...

Go to the Light

By on Oct 10, 2016 |

Many of you know me in real life and are aware that my oldest son passed away on October 1, 2016. I have received texts, personal messages, cards and phone calls from many of you sharing your love and sympathy. I thought I would address it here in one place. Today was my first day alone in over a week. I wasn’t sure how I was going to feel about it. On one hand, I was craving a little alone time to think. On the other hand, I was scared to have too much time to think. I was lucky to have two friends call me. They have no idea how nice it was to talk and laugh a little. I also had several friends text me to say they were thinking of me. Two people invited me to have lunch later this week. Diversion is a nice break. A bright spot in the day was a 24 year old man who stopped by with chili, chips and key lime pie that he had prepared himself. He stayed for about 30 minutes and shared...