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Happy Birthday Will!

By on Aug 8, 2017 | 7 comments

Will’s birthday is August 12th. It is through reading, meditation, wonderful mentors and parents who have experienced child loss that I have found peace since his passing.  Naturally there are times of melancholy but those times are fewer and further apart. I feel a spiritual closeness with Will that helps me know that his spirit is still with me.  My acceptance has come from viewing Heaven as a place where my oldest son lives.  He left all of his belongings here because all that he needs is being provided for him there.  Through him I have realized that Heaven is a place, not The End.  He is every bit as alive there as he was here.  In fact, I believe that he is not only alive, but that he is living the life that God intended for every man and woman at creation. John 6:47   Truly, I tell all of you emphatically, the one who believes in me has eternal life.   (International...

What I did on my summer vacation…

By on Aug 5, 2017 |

 It’s been a while since my last post.  I am really off my regular schedule this summer. My daughter has been on summer break from college.  I’ve enjoyed having time with her.  She has  a couple of weeks left before she goes back. My husband and I enjoyed a week at the beach with both of our married sons and their wives and our daughter over the Fourth of July holiday.  We were lucky enough to have a photographer take family pictures at the beach one evening.  I’ll tell you more about that trip later.  We loved the company but it was hot, hot, hot. We decided to upgrade our queen size mattress to a king size mattress.  I don’t know about you but buying a mattress for our bedroom is worse than buying a car. It has to make two people happy. The first mattress was an online purchase.  Fortunately, it had a 120 night guarantee.  The first night was like sleeping on...

If I Were a Butterfly

By on Jun 22, 2017 | 4 comments

Tb tv IWhen my son was in kindergarten, he learned “The Butterfly Song”.  The song begins “If I were a butterfly, I’d thank the Lord for giving me wings.  If I were a robin in a tree I’d thank you Lord  that I can sing”.” Ican still remember him with his missing front teeth lisp singing that song to me and his little brothers. It is one of  my most favorite memories of him as a little boy. Imagine that we are caterpillars and our loved ones who have passed are butterflies.  It is not so much that they have died as it is that we have not been fully developed.  Imagine that they have simply passed to the next stage and that it is us  who have not arrived. That is a thought that went through my head this morning.  As I pondered this idea the more it resonated with me.  Our loved ones have advanced from being a caterpillar with only feet to move their body to...

Father’s Day

By on Jun 15, 2017 | 1 comment

From the moment our son was born, my husband was a hands-on dad.  I had to return to work seven weeks after giving birth.  My husband did all of the night feedings without complaint.  He happily prepared breakfast and got our little guy ready for daycare by packing the diaper bag and preparing the bottles.   Bottles had to be sterilized in a pot on the stove.  He faithfully took care of that job every night after dinner.  He also did the family laundry.  We have family videos proving what a patient dad he was to our children.  He would watch all of the Nick Jr. shows that I didn’t have the patience to watch.  He would let them practice their karate kicks and pretend sword fighting on him.  He laid in the bed with them reading the same books over and over “one more time Dad”. Through his patience he showed all of our boys that gentleness doesn’t diminish manhood....