This is a question bereaved parents ask themselves. Without a doubt, child loss is the most life changing event of my life. There is a hole that cannot be filled with anything else. The longing is palpable dozens of times in a day. The question, “How could this be?”, is one I think about often. There is no answer to this question. The other question I ask myself is, “How do I live despite this loss?” Because there is no clear answer to either of these questions I am left to navigate by myself in uncharted territory. How did I get to this place in my life? This is not the plan I carefully mapped out. There was supposed to be a trajectory to my life, my son’s life and our family’s life, that was logical and planned for everyone’s highest good. But life, fate, or bad luck had another plan. The song sung by LeeAnn Rhimes titled, How Do I Live Without You, runs through my head often. I read...

Have you ever had an experience of two or more events which occur in a meaningful manner, but seem unrelated? The chance that they would occur together must be very small. This is called synchronicity. It is also referred to as a God Wink, defined as an event or personal experience often identified as coincidence, but is so astonishing that is seen as a sign of divine intervention, especially when perceived as the answer to a prayer. I have experienced God Winks, signs, and synchronicities from the first day of my son’s passing. In the beginning, I doubted whether these events were truly a connection with my son’s spirit, or merely wishful thinking. When sharing these experiences with those who have not lost a child, I sometimes wonder if they think that I have lost my mind. However, I have yet to talk with a bereaved parent that has not experienced this phenomenon. The love bond...